i notice sumtin bout myself

ive notice myself tat everytime i luv sum1,i gt weak in term of myself,my defends gets prone2 danger,even my study wil gt weaker,mayb god does't let me involve in these kind of tings til i gt old,dey does't gv me the "fair"oppurtinity.bt aniway i hope tat we could last long my sweetheart,jz like a fairy tale...=p,hehe^^